March 18, 2001
"Relaxation"
This will probably make no sense to someone who is not intrigued by the concept
of being in another's power. For me, however, the idea of being utterly helpless
seems terribly relaxing.
My thought today is of being mummified. Wrapped tightly in gauze bandages from
head to toe so that I am completely unable to move. Only a plastic tube in my
mouth allows me to breathe and, of course, my captor can easily cover that with
her fingertip or blow smoke into it. I am utterly helpless. Most people would
probably view that helplessness as frightening, but I think it would be very
relaxing for me. If I am completely helpless nothing is expected of me. I may
die in the next five minutes but there is absolutely nothing I can do to prevent
that... I can't even beg... Take that and combine it with complete sensory
deprivation and I would be drifting in a world without time.
I can't think of a more relaxing way to spend a weekend.