November 29, 2000
"The Grinding Stone"
I believe that's what it's called anyway. It's a large circular stone set on top
of a similar stone. The upper stone is turned in order to grind wheat between
the two stones in order to make flour.
Anyway, whatever it's called, one of my fantasy images is to be chained to the
bar and made to turn the enormous stone. I'm stripped nude and the overseer uses
the whip to make me push the stone round and round. I do this at least 16 hours
per day. It's horrible, back-breaking labor and I'll be fortunate if I survive a
week at it.
Actually, it's expected that I'll eventually die at the wheel. That's why the
Owner has put me there... It's a particularly cruel method of execution, but
that's why the Owner does it. She loves to devise ever more evil ways of
disposing of slaves she's grown bored with.
In my particular case, solely for her amusement, she has me blinded, my eyes put
out, before having me chained to the wheel. It's one additional torment as she
mocks me.
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This, of course, is a reworking of part of the
Biblical story of Samson and
Delilah. Delilah betrays Samson to his enemies the
Philistines
who then humiliate him by blinding him and setting him to work at the mill
stone. In the Bible, of course, Samson triumphs in the end. I, of course, am not
so fortunate. Always, my Mistress defeats me.